I do not know how to be an organized person. I try desperately to make it happen and the next day it’s back to square one. It’s terrible. This morning I was again lamenting the fact that I have so much trouble organizing and my husband said that’s because you have too much paper. Hmmm, that’s true. But I told him if I put it away then I forget about it. He yells, “EXACTLY! You use clutter as your to-do list!!!” ohhhh. Meaning all this stuff is a distraction from the really important stuff I need to do?!?!!? UGH….
This is a really big ah-ha moment for me. 20 minutes ago I started putting everything away realizing that there are way too many distractions in my life. I don’t need to leave my UGGs out in case it gets cold so that I remember to put them on. Yep, I do that. I leave piles of books, papers, art projects, you name it so that I don’t forget about anything. I thought I liked seeing all my cool projects lying around, but it makes me completely anxious now that I think about it. It really it just creates chaos in my mind and in my physical space. So today I am going to try doing one little thing at a time and we will see how it goes.
It already feels so much better. My clutter to-do list is way too overwhelming. I am going to see how this experiment goes and will report back. The anxiety is already leaving the building!
Ahhhhhhh.